I've realized throughout the past 24 years that I am just plain quirky. I notice these character flaws and I really do try to hide them from people, pretend that I'm something much smarter and sophisticated than I really am, if you really know me then no you're really not fooled, but for the rest of you, this is me coming clean. For instance I can't just go to an auto store and get the light for my license plate replaced, no I go to Walgreens buy a little reading light and tape it to the back of my car-what is my problem. So fickle and flaky sheesh. I see these failing and I attribute it to my lack of having a boyfriend and finding a decent job-sigh-I'm just so stinking lazy, I need to go on another mission. So just if you're wondering I am a white.

So here's some random mission stuff-lets face it, that's why we look at blogs for pictures and videos I'm not clever or funny enough for people to come to read what I have to say. This is Coimbra a very small part of it anyway and to be quite honest it made me a little dizzy watching this and the wind was horrible that day, so I did warn you.

Big dreams and empty pockets

So last week at Carrie's b-day party I was talking with her friend Emily and she told me about this really great Art School in Florida. My first thought was WOW Florida that's far and nasty humid, but I went home and took a look and fell in love. I was never sure about what schools were good for art or how to go about it that's why I wasn't sure about being an illustrator but this looks very promising and the school is very acclaimed. I started to dream, because I really want to be an illustrator, I know I have talent but I also need the proper training to develope and suceed. The only problem is art schools are forever expensive more so than they should be plus the fact that this is out of state, sheesh why didn't I know about this place when I was in High School or the fact that I for surely wanted to be an illustrator in High School. I want to go for my dream, but there are many factors in the way, 4 years in Florida never pictured myself there, of course I never saw myself in Portugal. I love my Arizona and lets face it I have better chances at settling down here more so than in Florida, but I know it's good for strong members to branch out and help other areas grow and be strong. I guess the biggest issues are the money thing and being away from family and friends when I just got back. Oh sigh all I know is a lot of heart felt prayer will go into this issue. I want to do what the Lord has in store for me. Oh and yes that is the same as the circus Ringling funny huh.

I'm an RM.....now what?

Well the good thing is I'm not alone in this, my brother just got back and my best friend and her brother too. They all seem to have jobs and school lined up which I do not, do to my lack of planning and figuring out what exactly I want to do with my life (sigh) but I have faith and trust that I will, something I learned from the mish, it's just a matter of time. My soul focus though was concentrating on others and doing everything in my power to make them happy and progressing, now coming back and having to switch roles it's a little more difficult and the fact that I can't invision what I see me doing, I know what I want to do but hopes and ambitions are more than my talent and skill I know with a lot of practice it comes a long, but that means in the mean time I've got to find a day job. So enough rambling on, I'm not sure about this blog stuff I mean I had to have my mom teach me how to do it for crying out loud-how embarrassing to say the least. Without much further a do I we will look at pictures of Trevor, returning home.

Just look how happy that mama is, maybe even more so than when I returned home ^_~